• Victor@lemmy.world
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    2 days ago

    Nobody gives a damn about me.

    This is just not true. I do, so I am proof of that.

    I don’t deserve to live.

    This is also incorrect, unless you’ve done something incredibly, incredibly horrendous, like murdering an entire orphanage or some shit.

    But you should definitely find help for these feelings that you have. Wanting to live is a great feeling, and I want that for you. It’s worth having for the sake of having it. Please tell me you’ll at least try to receive some help if you haven’t already. ❤️

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      I lost the ability to want to live and I don’t know how to get it back. I have been on meds and undergoing therapy for last 5 years or so. I am generally okay, but certain incidents trigger the worst aspects of me. that is because I have BPD.

      Anyways, thanks for your kind words. I will certainly try.

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        2 days ago

        Thank you, friend!

        I understand that that must be so tough. 😞

        Do you have any interests or hobbies that you like? 🙂

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          Not really. I mostly code a little, but that’s about it.

          Edit: Oh, I am a sucker for books. Like I have a library containing more than 1000 books.

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            2 days ago

            Oh my god? That’s insane! You live in a house or how do you fit all those books? Are they different genres? What kind of books do you read mostly?

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              I live with my parents, so I can indulge in it. I love reading fiction of all kinds: fantasy, classics, sci-fi. I also read a lot of philosophy and japanese comics.

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                Nice. I wish I was more into books. Seems like a wonderful world of fiction and nonfiction.

                Still though, around 1000 books. I can’t imagine what that would look like. There must be an entire room dedicated to books? They/you live in a big house with a library I imagine?

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                  24 hours ago

                  Not a whole lot of space. I use basically two large cupboards worth of space. Books are basically my escape from my life.